Gone for good!

Haha! Yea! The kind whatever you would call
this girl is no longer found right now!
Don't asked me why.
I won't bother to explain any more.

I was told to choose between Paint or Jewelry.
Which to choice from?
3words: I don't know.
It's true that i am not as good as Jo or the
rest but it does not really mean a thing to me
at all.
They're my classmate as well as rivals.
What would be worst? Nevertheless, it is never
going to break any friendship man!
What i am trying to say here is i really don't
know what is right and wrong any more.
What's best for me?
Drop jewelry and focus on painting?
Or what!? I shall let the coin to decide the
fate on Sunday then.
I'm sorry Mr Jay! =(
Sorry for putting up with me and my never ending
whining. Well, at least i know i will give you
a answer on Tuesday. Painting or Jewelry.
I'll keep trying for now. =)

In less than 20days, it is our date time.
The day where i regain back my freedom, i guess?

In less than 2months we will be sitting in the hall
for "O" Level examination.

In less than 2weeks, i will be sitting for my practical
examination. I have yet to master my pieces yet and
my chords are in no prefect order to use.
1word: Afraid.

In less than 2days, i will be seeing another doctor.
I hope it is no idiotic doctor.
True enough is that my health have been deteriorating.
Having a MCs now and then. As and when.
Just not too good to be playing around, how i wished
i was back in my Secondary3 life-Hopping, jumping,
running about... Haha! With a better condition of mine.
Haha! (: Never Mind! I'll get back on track!
I promised to myself! (:
I still have tons of things left for me to do...

Less than 4days, M.T result!
Something i am looking forward to even it might be
a disappointment or perhaps joy! =)
Who knows, right?!

To add on, i might not see my dad in another few more
months. I do envy with people who has dad so Seng
Mun, cherish them Ok!? =) You never know what is going
to happen next, don't regret when it is too late already.
I learned the hard way, i understood why.
In short, i do miss him.
It has been 1months since i last met him.
Wonder how is he doing now?
I left him a few messages yet no reply.
I'm not affected by him, not to worry. =)
Just concern! Take care DAD!(:

I am having countless of nightmare every now and then.
I would even wake up in the middle of the night and
how tiny things would freak me up.
I guess it bring down to one word: Stress!

I tried.
I am trying.
I am striving.

Haha! Oh and ya! I'm just ranting to my post if
you really don't mind! I'm feeling complicated
that is all. ^^
And, i really resent people who don't even try
and all they really cared is answer! Argh.

As a saying goes, "You reap what you sow."
That's all. =)
Ps:(如果我变成回忆... perhaps that is how i am
feeling now. tired.)